in actuality u cnt forget me & if u think real hard u'll kno why. 1st time for evrything, lol. so here igo again tlkn too much as ialways do. bt diz iz actually mah last time explainin mahself. itz apparent im not perfect. im crazy. lol. idefinitely lack self-control. im so dam STUBBORN, emotional, dramatic, wat was duh other one? sensitive. duh one ihate duh most. lol. & idoubt u remember bt itold u ur not duh 1st person 2 call me dat. & ialso overthink things. those r jus mah flaws. icnt help em. ican only try 2 improve. bt wat about duh gud things about me? can u describe me as one word other than gorgeous? lol. im funny, and pretty. im very caring. also helpful. & wen it comes to u im duh most sweetest thing. (idoubt u notice dat either.) dats y dey call me kandy<---------yeah rite. lol.
movin rite along. skool year ends. too badd mah thots and feelinz havent. & u say u dnt hav nun rite? well dat sucks. no passy. lol. & wen u did u neva told me. maybe cuz other gurls were in duh picture? or maybe becuz it wasnt dat serious enuff 4 u 2 tell me? or maybe becuz iwasnt as important. *frowns* bt iguess dats jus wat ihav 2 accept. imember duh time wen iwas supposedly thot of as nuthn more than uh "sister." iwud kill(no iwudnt) 4 it to have been lyk dat. iwud love 2 think of u as uh brother. bt itz too late now. . .lol. (hope u catch dat.) wish icud erase wat all happend cuz itz sum SHYT dat happend alrite. lol. bt u learn 4rm EVRY EXPERIENCE, gud or badd. pain or pleasure. *smiles*
itry 2 put on diz tough girl act. lyk stuff dnt affect me. itz alot goin on in mah lyf & lyk chantal say "u be tryna hold stuff in" cuz in fact, deres plenty of stuff dat ihold in dat nobody will eva kno about. bt y inform ppl about ur problems wen dey hav dere own? neway. ionce again wanna apologize 4 all duh stress i've caused. ican be overwhelming. hopefully u still see me as duh same person iwas(genuine personality? do istill have dat?) b4 we strtd diz spring fling. . .dat ended b4 it strtd. u did sum fuked up shyt dat iexpected bt we not gon touch basis on dat. itz summer now. . .=(
so iguess ima be sumthn lyk drake tho, "thinkin about wat we had & missin u" & yes im santa(ms. claus to be exact) igot nuthn 4 dese badd niggaz too. not even gon elaborate on dat. jus kno wat we had may not be important 2 u, bt it was 2 me, cuz lyk isayd, dats as close as igot. in duh words of we str8 now "wat ioffer seems 2 neva be enuff" or maybe wat ioffer seems 2 be too dam much. *sighs* idk. itz gon take me awhile 2 get over diz. it always does. ididnt intend on fallin in love or waddeva ppl call it dese days. idk if itz love or not bt u cnt lyk nobody diz much. lol. & wen isayd igot mah ♥ broken b4 iknew it iwas in love dats exactly wat imeant. ireally didnt lyk u as much wen we were. . .bt afta dat. . .*sighs*
ikno all ur friends think im duh dumbest gurl in duh world. & dat does bother me bt it aint about wat ppl think. dey dk unless dere in diz situation. dats y istop tlkn shyt about ppl & their relationships. cuz ihavent been in dat place 2 understand wats goin on. so fuk whoeva thinks im stupid, cnt relate 2 me, or doesnt understand y iwaste mah time on sumone who. . .*not finishin dat statement* bt if dere was nethang 2 eva gon on between us again, dey wud be duh last 2 kno. dats real shyt.
bt conclusion. deres always sumthn on mah mind rite? dats one of mah problems. idk wen 2 stfu. lol. oh well. maybe ull miss it sumday. cuz icnt offer u no friendship rite now. hey, bye, how u doin. jus think of me as anotha random chick. . .as long as u think of me. . .ily. ♥
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